Excerpt from "Roaming Thoughts - Unedited" - Untitled

I feel and know that I am missing something....

Her decaying soul cry with pain...

"To be happy or to be sad
She doesn't know anything anymore
She feels nothing
or may be feels everything
But she doesn't know for sure.

Her heart is burning inside out
And tears won't run down from her eyes
and the fear and sadness builds inside.
It is too much to bare
that much she know for sure.

It's like she's not there anymore
That she's floating in the univers
unseen and unheard,
Like she has become an inconstant
instead of the constant she should be.

And she waits and waits
And it's a never ending longing
she looks far ahead
and sees nothing but a mirage in the desert
And her decaying soul cry with pain."

Waiting for something...

May be we all wait for something in life.. A perfect day, a dream to come true, to see someone or to be with someone, to have a kid or to leave a legacy, to change the world, or to see a flower bloom, build a snowman, to see Eiffel tower or go to Venice, the point is whether it's simple or not we all may wait for something in life. And that one thing or many things could be very big for you. And while we wait for this day, our lives go on. We wake up everyday, do what ever we do, we eat, we sleep, we laugh and we cry, we work tirelessly and we do thousands of different things. But deep down inside, only thing we may really want, may be is to see or experience what we really wait for, in every single moment of our lives.

is it wrong to feel this way...

mountains far away

ocean turned to blue

cool breeze scent of a rose

phoenix fly away

you sung like a nightingale

made me smile my heart out

you gave me all you had

and made me happy forever

i don't know your favorite colour

or your favorite place to go

i never knew the song in your heart

or the movie that you felt in love

but you stood by me always

and kept me strong and warm

you held my hand and promised me

that you would never let it go

i was never good with promises

or with the dreams that hold the life

and i don't do well with rejection

or with sarcasm comes with all

but you understood many of it

and showed me how to dream

you looked into my eyes

and gave me a paradise

so i ask

is it wrong to say that i miss you

is it wrong to say that i want you

is it wrong to say that i love you

is it wrong to feel this way...

show me a way...

kiss me

I say

put your hands around my neck

take me closer

look in to my eyes

and kiss me

I locked up my heart

closed its door

and threw the key away

now I don't know how to

open it up

and speak up the words

you yearn to hear

now I don't know how to

open it up

and cross the boundaries

you want me to cross

but I want you to try,

try and do what you wanna do

make me walk over the moon

dance on the sea shore

and get lost in the woods

so I say,

kiss me

I say

put your hands around my neck

take me closer

look in to my eyes

and kiss me

And it'll be a wonderful world

where nightingales sing

and gondolas flow

And it'll be a wonderful place

where we hold each other

and live forever

I have lost my way

there's no going back

I'm scared and cold

there's no shelter to run

now I don't know how to

find my way back

and speak up the words

you yearn to hear

now I don't know how to

standup for each other

and cross the boundaries

you want me to cross

but I want you to try,

try and do what you wanna do

make me walk on the moon

dance on the sea shore

and get lost in the woods

so I say,

kiss me

I say

put your hands around my neck

take me closer

look in to my eyes

and kiss me

And it'll be a wonderful world

where nightingales sing

and gondolas flow

And it'll be a wonderful place

where we hold each other

and live forever