Her decaying soul cry with pain...

"To be happy or to be sad
She doesn't know anything anymore
She feels nothing
or may be feels everything
But she doesn't know for sure.

Her heart is burning inside out
And tears won't run down from her eyes
and the fear and sadness builds inside.
It is too much to bare
that much she know for sure.

It's like she's not there anymore
That she's floating in the univers
unseen and unheard,
Like she has become an inconstant
instead of the constant she should be.

And she waits and waits
And it's a never ending longing
she looks far ahead
and sees nothing but a mirage in the desert
And her decaying soul cry with pain."

is it wrong to feel this way...

mountains far away

ocean turned to blue

cool breeze scent of a rose

phoenix fly away

you sung like a nightingale

made me smile my heart out

you gave me all you had

and made me happy forever

i don't know your favorite colour

or your favorite place to go

i never knew the song in your heart

or the movie that you felt in love

but you stood by me always

and kept me strong and warm

you held my hand and promised me

that you would never let it go

i was never good with promises

or with the dreams that hold the life

and i don't do well with rejection

or with sarcasm comes with all

but you understood many of it

and showed me how to dream

you looked into my eyes

and gave me a paradise

so i ask

is it wrong to say that i miss you

is it wrong to say that i want you

is it wrong to say that i love you

is it wrong to feel this way...

show me a way...

kiss me

I say

put your hands around my neck

take me closer

look in to my eyes

and kiss me

I locked up my heart

closed its door

and threw the key away

now I don't know how to

open it up

and speak up the words

you yearn to hear

now I don't know how to

open it up

and cross the boundaries

you want me to cross

but I want you to try,

try and do what you wanna do

make me walk over the moon

dance on the sea shore

and get lost in the woods

so I say,

kiss me

I say

put your hands around my neck

take me closer

look in to my eyes

and kiss me

And it'll be a wonderful world

where nightingales sing

and gondolas flow

And it'll be a wonderful place

where we hold each other

and live forever

I have lost my way

there's no going back

I'm scared and cold

there's no shelter to run

now I don't know how to

find my way back

and speak up the words

you yearn to hear

now I don't know how to

standup for each other

and cross the boundaries

you want me to cross

but I want you to try,

try and do what you wanna do

make me walk on the moon

dance on the sea shore

and get lost in the woods

so I say,

kiss me

I say

put your hands around my neck

take me closer

look in to my eyes

and kiss me

And it'll be a wonderful world

where nightingales sing

and gondolas flow

And it'll be a wonderful place

where we hold each other

and live forever

The Message of My Heart...

May this wind
carry the message
of my heart,
and may it speak
the unspoken of eternity.

May these mountains
echo the message
of my heart,
and may those hide
the passion of love.

May this earth
warm the message
of my heart,
and may it embrace
the children of future.

May these waters
sail the msessage
of my heart,
and may those fullfill
the thirst of life.

May this bird
sing the message
of my heart,
and may it travel
the land of faraway.

And may all these
come together as one,
and may those bring
the happiness of life.

' I see through "Red Wine" '

It's dark
with lights all over
blue, green and red.
It's silent
with music aloud
strings of a guitar
and cymbals and toms.
People drunk
they talk and sing
dance and laugh
everyone sees everyone
and no one sees anyone.
But,
I see a girl
mad in love
possessed by love
wondering around
unseen to everyone.
Her heart is on fire
like the Phoenix who dies.
Her eyes are cold
like the depth of the sea.
'Birds' are singing
it's a maddening tune
everybody dance
and she searches
for a face
from eye to eye
A glimpse to hold on
A moment to remember.
And I see everything,
Everything in life
with my weary eyes,
And I drink Red Wine.

Me, My Friend and My Foe

I'm my friend, and I'm my foe
from the past to the future
in the boat that I raw

It's hard to be a
friend to thee
and a friend to me

So it's either you
or either me
or neither at all

So I became
friend to thee and foe to me
from the past to the future
in the lives to come.

The Stranger

I met a stranger
Stop I say
Don't come closer
But
As he was a stranger
Didn't listen
and crossed the road
So he got hurt
As it was bound to happen
No one can say
that I didn't warn
It was his mistake
His desire got better of him
So I beg and plead
Don't come closer
Don't ever come closer.

It's an eternal scar..

I wake up in the beautiful morning
And see my swollen eyes by mourning
So the pain rush through my body by burning
And I start the day with a yearning

It's an eternal scar..
Carved from the warm tears of my eyes
It's an eternal scar..
Carved deep in to the roots of my heart
It's an eternal scar..
Reminds me the nightmares of life
It's an eternal scar..
Reminds me the beauty I dreamt

I'm tantalized when I'm in reality
So I fantasize things beyond reality
It keeps me away from sanity
And gives me a hope for the vitality

When I think I should get out of this haze
It appears with more power like a blaze
And throws my self in to a maze
And keep me in the state of daze

Go to the top and be the best
Put a smile on my face and do the rest
This is the wish I carry to the chest
In the end I Hope I could meet in the west.

It's an eternal scar..
Carved from the warm tears of my eyes
It's an eternal scar..
Carved deep in to the roots of my heart
It's an eternal scar..
Reminds me the nightmares of life
It's an eternal scar..
Reminds me the beauty I dreamt

It's an eternal scar..
Carved from the warm tears of my eyes
It's an eternal scar..
Carved deep in to the roots of my heart

It's an eternal scar..

Cross the Line....

Does she cross the line?
cross and does something
something she should not do
Answer her.. she wants to know.

It's so hard
Not to cross the line
when she sees the
beauty beyond.

It's so hard
Not to give in to her feelings
when she knows the
length it could take her.

Does she cross the line?
cross and does something
something which will make tears in eyes
Answer her.. she wants to know.

It's not easy
to hold back her tears
when she knows
why they are there.

It's not easy
to move on with life
when she knows
what she lost for ever.

Does she cross the line?
cross and does something
something to see his smiling eyes
Answer her.. she wants to know.

It's so easy
to give into his smile
when she could imagine the
extreme beauty it could take her.

It's so hard
to see the disappointment
when she knows the
hope is everything.

Does she cross the line?
cross and does something
something irresistible , would you reject her?
Answer her.. she wants to know.

Does she cross the line?
Answer her.. she wants to know.

So Much Less was Said...

Words come to my heart
tears fill my eyes
memories come to my mind
Will there be another chance?
I ask my self.

So much less was said
when I had the chance.
Now it is gone and too late
I see no going back...

I should have said
everything you wanted to know
everything I wanted to say
we could have been different
we would have light up our lives.

So much less was said
when I had the chance.
Now it is gone and too late
I see no going back...

Blue, violet, indigo
now the rainbow has faded to white light
there's no colour you can see in me
as the rain is over
a teardrop could change.

So much less was said
when I had the chance.
Now it is gone and too late
I see no going back...

Time passes day by day
I see you near but you are away
There won't be an answer
to the silent question within me
so the pendulum has stopped for me.

So much less was said
when I had the chance.
Now it is gone and too late
I see no going back...

"It won't be over... "

Knock... Knock...
the lights went off,
the wind rushed through the window,
slammed.. the door get closed..

I lighted a candle
but the wind blew it away.
All was dark and
there was no way out..

There was a chilling coldness
a shiver caught up with me
and I was thrown to the darkness
couldn't catch up my breath.

I was on my knees
crawling and sighing
nothing could be seen
and no where to go..

A pain went through my body
and memories began to haunt
and the story of harsh truth
unveiled before my eyes again

I heard a deep voice,
it whispered into my ears,
"It won't be over..
it's just beginning.."

And flashes came one by one
I was loosing the glimpse of light
reminding me there's no end to a round
light came through the window pane,
and it will happen again.

Paradise of love...

When you cross the bridge to the paradise of love,
And when you walk through that beautiful gate,
You'll be enchanted by the beauty you see,
You'll be captured with a glow of your passion,
And all your dreams will be bound with love,
And all your feelings would be uncontrollable.

And when you cross the bridge to the paradise of love,
And when you walk through that beautiful gate,
You'll walk through beautiful paths with hand to hand,
You'll feel the warmth rising through your nerves,
And you'll give anything to feel that warmth,
And you'll be haunted by the memories of every moment.

And when you cross the bridge to the paradise of love,
And when you walk through that beautiful gate,
You'll see that there are prickles on the stem of red rose,
You'll face with huge mountains in the beautiful path you took,
And you'll see the beauty of rose without wounding your fingers,
only if you are protected by your love.
And you'll get to the mountain top,
only if you walk with hand to hand, with courage and love.

And when you cross the bridge to the paradise of love,
And when you walk through that beautiful gate...

The Ship of Life....

This is a translation of a verse that I got from one of my friends...


Only put what is necessary
to the ship of life.
A small house, a simple enjoyment,
Two friends,
A person whom you love,
A person whom loves you,
A cat and a dog,
Plenty of food, clothes,
Something to drink would do.
Then the ship won't fall,
and even it does,
it won't be mattered..

(Thanx Dinesha for the wonderful thought...)