It's being a while.. er not a while, a long time since I last wrote something in here. And when I think of writing something in here, and start to write, I go blank. Why is that? I often ask from my self. And I finally came to a conclusion. It's that I have so many things in my mind, in my head and in my heart, I get confused on what should I write and what should I left out. What you, who is out there should know about me and what I write and what should not know.And whether you are ready to listen to what I have to say or whether I should make you listen. I always believed that writing is an excellent way to express one self. And I have not changed my mind about that. And there was a time that I made a difference within my self by writing. But things have changed. The time has come that I'm full of many things and my ability or most probably my willingness, to express my self through writing is fading. And these two contrasting state of mind, wanting to write and not wanting to express my self entirely, is making me go blank when I start to write. And also to write according to the standards within my self, I need time to write and to read, strength, stability and peace in mind, which I seems to lack these days.
Though I'm not willing to write journal entries in this blog, I thought it would do some good to write this in here, because you may be facing the same situation.
