is it wrong to feel this way...

mountains far away

ocean turned to blue

cool breeze scent of a rose

phoenix fly away

you sung like a nightingale

made me smile my heart out

you gave me all you had

and made me happy forever

i don't know your favorite colour

or your favorite place to go

i never knew the song in your heart

or the movie that you felt in love

but you stood by me always

and kept me strong and warm

you held my hand and promised me

that you would never let it go

i was never good with promises

or with the dreams that hold the life

and i don't do well with rejection

or with sarcasm comes with all

but you understood many of it

and showed me how to dream

you looked into my eyes

and gave me a paradise

so i ask

is it wrong to say that i miss you

is it wrong to say that i want you

is it wrong to say that i love you

is it wrong to feel this way...

show me a way...

kiss me

I say

put your hands around my neck

take me closer

look in to my eyes

and kiss me

I locked up my heart

closed its door

and threw the key away

now I don't know how to

open it up

and speak up the words

you yearn to hear

now I don't know how to

open it up

and cross the boundaries

you want me to cross

but I want you to try,

try and do what you wanna do

make me walk over the moon

dance on the sea shore

and get lost in the woods

so I say,

kiss me

I say

put your hands around my neck

take me closer

look in to my eyes

and kiss me

And it'll be a wonderful world

where nightingales sing

and gondolas flow

And it'll be a wonderful place

where we hold each other

and live forever

I have lost my way

there's no going back

I'm scared and cold

there's no shelter to run

now I don't know how to

find my way back

and speak up the words

you yearn to hear

now I don't know how to

standup for each other

and cross the boundaries

you want me to cross

but I want you to try,

try and do what you wanna do

make me walk on the moon

dance on the sea shore

and get lost in the woods

so I say,

kiss me

I say

put your hands around my neck

take me closer

look in to my eyes

and kiss me

And it'll be a wonderful world

where nightingales sing

and gondolas flow

And it'll be a wonderful place

where we hold each other

and live forever

It's DECEMBER...

It's December. And in a moment, this year would come to an end. Have no idea how the time flew by. And soon enough 2011 also will come and go. But the life won't change. Oh..yeah, you might disagree..but for me its the truth. Ten years back, I got up in the morning, went to school, came home, did homework, watched TV and went to bed. Today, I go for lectures, come home, do studies, watch TV or some movie and go to bed. And next year, I might go for work, come home, do some more work, watch TV or some movie and go to bed. Ring a similarity? No spontaneous life changes. No near death experiences. Instead over the years it has become less reading, less traveling, less time with good friends, less to no letters to or from my best friend, less talking, less true smiles, less time in temple, less freedom, less connection with family and less interest in world all together. So if the pattern continues, who knows what would happen. But, yes.. there were those moments, moments that I try to remember over and over again, moments that I try to keep in my mind, moments that I want to be an eternity. But then again, those moments are illusions, that might fade away. In reality, I am still me, who were there ten years back, who tried to keep a happy face in every moment that spent at home, because there were no other choice. They say that life could change in a moment, after all it took only seconds for the atomic bomb to destroy an entire city and generations to come. But all those for the bad, for good it takes an eternity. And ten years is a long time to live in monotony. So you tell me, would things change spontaneously for me in the next moment?