Excerpt from "Roaming Thoughts - Unedited" - Untitled

I feel and know that I am missing something....

Her decaying soul cry with pain...

"To be happy or to be sad
She doesn't know anything anymore
She feels nothing
or may be feels everything
But she doesn't know for sure.

Her heart is burning inside out
And tears won't run down from her eyes
and the fear and sadness builds inside.
It is too much to bare
that much she know for sure.

It's like she's not there anymore
That she's floating in the univers
unseen and unheard,
Like she has become an inconstant
instead of the constant she should be.

And she waits and waits
And it's a never ending longing
she looks far ahead
and sees nothing but a mirage in the desert
And her decaying soul cry with pain."

is it wrong to feel this way...

mountains far away

ocean turned to blue

cool breeze scent of a rose

phoenix fly away

you sung like a nightingale

made me smile my heart out

you gave me all you had

and made me happy forever

i don't know your favorite colour

or your favorite place to go

i never knew the song in your heart

or the movie that you felt in love

but you stood by me always

and kept me strong and warm

you held my hand and promised me

that you would never let it go

i was never good with promises

or with the dreams that hold the life

and i don't do well with rejection

or with sarcasm comes with all

but you understood many of it

and showed me how to dream

you looked into my eyes

and gave me a paradise

so i ask

is it wrong to say that i miss you

is it wrong to say that i want you

is it wrong to say that i love you

is it wrong to feel this way...

show me a way...

kiss me

I say

put your hands around my neck

take me closer

look in to my eyes

and kiss me

I locked up my heart

closed its door

and threw the key away

now I don't know how to

open it up

and speak up the words

you yearn to hear

now I don't know how to

open it up

and cross the boundaries

you want me to cross

but I want you to try,

try and do what you wanna do

make me walk over the moon

dance on the sea shore

and get lost in the woods

so I say,

kiss me

I say

put your hands around my neck

take me closer

look in to my eyes

and kiss me

And it'll be a wonderful world

where nightingales sing

and gondolas flow

And it'll be a wonderful place

where we hold each other

and live forever

I have lost my way

there's no going back

I'm scared and cold

there's no shelter to run

now I don't know how to

find my way back

and speak up the words

you yearn to hear

now I don't know how to

standup for each other

and cross the boundaries

you want me to cross

but I want you to try,

try and do what you wanna do

make me walk on the moon

dance on the sea shore

and get lost in the woods

so I say,

kiss me

I say

put your hands around my neck

take me closer

look in to my eyes

and kiss me

And it'll be a wonderful world

where nightingales sing

and gondolas flow

And it'll be a wonderful place

where we hold each other

and live forever

The Message of My Heart...

May this wind
carry the message
of my heart,
and may it speak
the unspoken of eternity.

May these mountains
echo the message
of my heart,
and may those hide
the passion of love.

May this earth
warm the message
of my heart,
and may it embrace
the children of future.

May these waters
sail the msessage
of my heart,
and may those fullfill
the thirst of life.

May this bird
sing the message
of my heart,
and may it travel
the land of faraway.

And may all these
come together as one,
and may those bring
the happiness of life.

Lady, I'm your knight in shining armor and I love you...

This song always catches my ear and heart when ever it is played. Its a beautiful fairytale to come true.

Lady by Kenny Rogers





Lady, I'm your knight in shining armor and I love you
You have made me what I am and I am yours
My love, there's so many ways I want to say I love you
Let me hold you in my arms forever more

You have gone and made me such a fool
I'm so lost in your love
And oh, we belong together
Won't you believe in my song?

Lady, for so many years I thought I'd never find you
You have come into my life and made me whole
Forever let me wake to see you each and every morning
Let me hear you whisper softly in my ear

In my eyes I see no one else but you
There's no other love like our love
And yes, oh yes, I'll always want you near me
I've waited for you for so long

Lady, your love's the only love I need
And beside me is where I want you to be
'Cause, my love, there's somethin' I want you to know
You're the love of my life, you're my lady!

' I see through "Red Wine" '

It's dark
with lights all over
blue, green and red.
It's silent
with music aloud
strings of a guitar
and cymbals and toms.
People drunk
they talk and sing
dance and laugh
everyone sees everyone
and no one sees anyone.
But,
I see a girl
mad in love
possessed by love
wondering around
unseen to everyone.
Her heart is on fire
like the Phoenix who dies.
Her eyes are cold
like the depth of the sea.
'Birds' are singing
it's a maddening tune
everybody dance
and she searches
for a face
from eye to eye
A glimpse to hold on
A moment to remember.
And I see everything,
Everything in life
with my weary eyes,
And I drink Red Wine.

"How can I not love you..."

I love this song...

Soundtrack: Anna And The King
Title: How Can I Not Love You
Artist: Joy Enriquez






Cannot touch, cannot hold, cannot be together
Cannot love, cannot kiss, cannot love each other
Must be strong and we must let go
Cannot say what our hearts must know

Chorus:
How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you here in my arms
How does one walks away
From all of the memories
How do I not miss you when you are gone

Cannot dream, cannot share sweet and tender moments
Cannot feel how we feel, must pretend it’s over
Must be brave and we must go on, must not say
What we’ve known all along

Chorus:
How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you here in my arms
How does one walks away
From all of the memories
How do I not miss you when you are gone

How can I not love you

Bridge:
Must be brave and we must be strong
Cannot say what we’ve known all along

Chorus:
How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you here in my arms
How does one walks away
From all of the memories
How do I not miss you when you are gone

How can I not love you
When you are gone

Excerpt from "Roaming Thoughts - Unedited" - may be going wild

its being one hell of a long time.. exams, results, trips, meeting with friends.. but something is missing.. i feel that, and i know that.. out of no where today i figured out that i do lot of eating (junk food specially) when i'm out of mood.. may be thats why i'm getting fat.. hi hi.. after a long time i'm home today for the whole day.. i hate to hear people arguing or fighting, specially people i care about.. it freaks me out.. but.. (now your imaginations can or could go wild) .. i should eat.. work.. trust me i have lot on that section.. degree, music, some other thing i started lately.. these helps to keep me in track (barely) .. i started up reading.. but i don't feel like doing it all the time as i used to.. instead i starts wondering around with the characters.. looking at this i see lot of "i"s'.. may be i'm self centered.. i do this, i do that, i feel bad, i feel happy and all the nonsense about me.. then again i love latin music.. cool rhythms.. beats.. right now i'm listening to soundtrack of dirty dancing 2 havana nights.. very up beat..makes me want really listen to that.. closing my eyes and all.. it kind of distracts me.. which is good.. usually i read what i write when i'm writing.. today i try not to do that.. b'coz i don't want to.. i don't write about what ever the things i'm writing right now usually in here.. but then again, i feel like stepping out of the track.. and go wild once in a while.. so this may well be the start.. i'm eating cocktail mixture.. and i eat a lot.. okay.. may be i should stop now.. by the way i didn't clean up my room today.. anyway, may be you wanna dance now.. (after reading all my crap.. (if u even get to the end :O )) .. okay.. i read now.. here's a song for you to get your body moving..

Mya - Do You Only Wanna Dance Lyrics from Dirty Dancing Hava Nights

Funny thing is when I look into your eyes
I sense something so sincere in your disguise
You whisper secrets I hear only in my dreams
Then I wake up to your tele-smoke screen
I wait patiently while you play your game
'Cause in the end, I'll be the winner all the same
You'll see clearly when the song comes to a stop
I'll be the one blowing kisses from the top

(Mya)
(So baby, stop) Stop, you're surrounded
(I got my love) Love all around ya
(One wrong move) Move and I'll down ya
And that'll end ya
You should surrender
You'll never win
Unless you give in

(So stop, baby, stop) Stop, you're surrounded
(I got my love) Love all around ya
(One wrong move) Move and I'll down ya
And that'll end ya
You should surrender
You'll never win
Unless you give in
So won't you give our love a chance?
Or do you only wanna dance?

You put your lips very closely to my face
And then you run away and so begins the chase
I'll be the hunter, but boy, you better pray
'Cause when I want ya, I'll get you anyway
You know what I wanna do
It ain't nothing new
I'm tired of dropping clues
So, gonna step to you
Will you rise to my occasion?
Or will you make me change your station?

Stop, you're surrounded
(I got my love) Love all around ya (Uh)
(One wrong move) Move and I'll down ya
And that'll end ya
You should surrender
You'll never win
Unless you give in

(Stop) Stop, you're surrounded
(Oh, I got my love) Love all around ya
(One wrong move) Move and I'll down ya
And that'll end ya (Uh)
You should surrender (Uh)
You'll never win
Unless you give in
So won't you give our love a chance?
Or do you only wanna dance?

If you take my hands
And follow my lead
I'll make you dance (I can make you dance)
But if you get my feet (Get my feet)
And miss the beat (And miss the beat)
Then I can't take that chance (Then I can't take that chance)
If you take my hands (Oh)
And follow my lead (Oh, Oh, oh-oh)
I'll make you dance (I can make you dance)
But if you get my feet (Get my feet)
And miss the beat (And miss the beat)
Then I can't take that chance (I can't take it)

(So stop it) Stop, you're surrounded
(I got my love) Love all around ya
(One wrong move) Move and I'll down ya
And that'll end ya
You should surrender
You'll never win
Unless you give in

(So stop) Stop, you're surrounded (Baby stop)
Love all around ya
(One wrong move) Move and I'll down ya
And that'll end ya (Uh)
You should surrender (Uh)
You'll never win
Unless you give in

(Stop, baby, stop) Stop, you're surrounded
(I got my love) Love all around ya (All around you)
Move and I'll down ya
And that'll end ya
You should surrender
You'll never win
Unless you give in

(So stop) Stop, you're surrounded
(I got my love) Love all around ya (All around you)
Move and I'll down ya (Uh-uh-uh)
And that'll end ya (Uh-uh-uh!)
You should surrender (Uh-uh-uh!!)
You'll never win
Unless you give in
So won't you give our love a chance?

"It all comes down to who's by your side" - A Walk to Remember - Nicholas Sparks (1965 - ...)

Excerpt from "Roaming Thoughts - Unedited" - A Red Rose

"I disliked roses. Yes, quite extraordinary thing to do. I never understood the pureness of a rose, specially a red rose. But now, if I say quite astonishingly.. I love a rose, a red rose. Yet, it's far gone beyond my reach.

History has his mark upon this beautiful red rose. In the colour of blood to the softness like a feather in it's petals, it gives happiness to a young girl, binds the unbind, gives comfort in shattering times and finally reaches the heart of unreachable. But sometimes one can also be irrecoverably wounded by a thorn of a red rose. Thousands of writers over the undying centuries have written uncountable things around a red rose.. Love, hatred, undying passion, desire.. But a single tear drop on petal of a red rose, when it is given hand to hand, is profoundly bound with thousands of unspeakable words.

I've heard and seeing somewhere that a black rose signifies "goodbye". A black rose that I may have now, but I forever love a red rose, a red rose which its color is from me, which its wetness is from me, and which its thorns attached to me."

“But he that dares not grasp the thorn
Should never crave the rose. ” - Anne Bronte (1820 - 1849)

The Stranger

I met a stranger
Stop I say
Don't come closer
But
As he was a stranger
Didn't listen
and crossed the road
So he got hurt
As it was bound to happen
No one can say
that I didn't warn
It was his mistake
His desire got better of him
So I beg and plead
Don't come closer
Don't ever come closer.

In the memory of my grandmother....

It's being a while.. Last seven days of my life has being hectic.

Nearly a week ago my grandmother passed away. She was full of life, talking, laughing and having a good time with her grand kids in one moment and in the next moment she was gone, just like that. She went away without troubling anyone even for a single second. We lost her charisma, her love, her smiling face and every other small detail about her in the matter of few minutes for ever. She left a moaning space in every body's heart.

It's very hard to watch her daughters, sons, grand children, great grand children and in-laws fall in to tears helplessly, in very odd moments. She was a true woman. And our lives has changed a lot by what happened. No more visits to grandmother's place on Avurudu or Vesak. It's like loosing the knot that kept us tight together. It'll never be the same anymore.

Her children believes that she is suddenly taken away from us to be in a better place. A place where she'll meet my grandfather again. My grand father passed away exactly six years ago. And their children thinks he called her to be with him, to have another life, full of love, happiness, understanding and trust. Today my mother said that my grandfather has loved my grand mother lot more than she loved him back, so that they always had a way to solve problems without having a single argument. And my mother says he always used to say to my grandmother that "I won't leave alone, I'll always take you with me." So may be after six years, at the age of 84 he has taken her with him, to love and cherish another life.

And finally I want my love and life to be like theirs, INSEPARABLE.